Secrets

"And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose."

18 June 2005

What's the reason??

If everything happens for a reason...can someone explain why bad things happen to good people? It seems that ever since we were children we were always taught that if we do something wrong then we would be punished, and if we do something right then we would be rewarded. So if you apply this general rule to life, things would be much easier on many good people in this world. But for some reason as we grow into adults it appears that the good often suffer. Many times they suffer for the bad. Why is this? If there's a reason for everything happening, I wish someone could help me out! I just don't understand the whole purpose of life. This seems to be the general concept: Basically we walk around like puppets in our daily activities. I've come to this conclusion because NO ONE want's to have a bad life. NO ONE wants to be a criminal, or a drug addict. If everyone had 100% control over their lives then you wouldn't see these kinds of things in the world. For example, if you're born into poverty, then this will be the kind of lifestyle that you would be more predisposed to living. ALSO, you might not have been born into poverty. Maybe your family was very wealty in fact...BUT, you might have been the most unpopular kid in school because of something as trivial as your looks. To cope with the pain caused by something beyond your control, you may turn to drugs. This is not the lifestyle you've chosen for yourself. No one really has any control over anything in their life. We are puppets!

So back to the whole reason why I'm writing this nonsence....Everything happens for a reason. Let's make up a scenario. You're driving down the highway going the speedlimit in a Mercedes that's just been driven off the lot. You are following all the rules placed before you by the law inforcement industry. Out of nowhere a drunk driver hits your brand new Mercedes! The driver walks away from the accident unharmed, while you end up paralized from the neck down. So you have done nothing wrong in this scenario, but due to circumstances beyond your control you suffer...dearly for the wrongdoings of the drunk driver. So once again I ask...What is the reason for this? I honetly couldn't say. It seems to me that life is a bunch of bull that we're forced to participate in whether we like it or not. There's no reason for us to be here except to be attached to strings and knocked down by obstacles placed before us.

13 June 2005

Hanging by a thread...

I'm sitting in a big room
Plastered on the walls are memories
Cherished and never forgotten
The aroma reminds me of you
I can taste you
But I know your not here
I hear your voice everyday
Can you hear mine?
Have I invested too much of my time?
Will it all be gone?
I'm hanging by a thread
Please pull me back up!
I might fall too hard
I don't think I'll bounce back
What can you do for me?
I just want to know that you care.

07 June 2005

Picture perfect

My painting
About a year ago I painted a picture for myself...
It was beautiful
It's colors were rich
It overlooked the forest
But I could see beyond the vegetation
I controlled the brush
Every stroke I took was mine
So I painted comfort
I painted happiness
I painted peace
All the colors were where I wanted them to be.
Today...
I no longer have this painting
I have a replacement
It's not as special as mine
The colors are dull
And it doesn't fit my style
The trees obstruct the view
Nothing's where I want it to be
I'm tempted to throw it away
It only takes up space
But I don't have another to take its place
Can anybody help me?

06 June 2005

Let's get this thing rollin!!

Almost 6 months since my last post!! I'm shocked to be back again. What does this maddness mean?!? What has caused me to come back and begin writting my most deepest thoughts for everyone to view at their own liesure?! I guess I'm the only one who really knows the answers. However, I'm certain that I'm back and hopefully better than ever. I don't want to waste time...time is precious. So lets get this thing rollin!
To put my thoughts into words is scary...
So Brace yourself
Hold on
Take a deep beath
Let it out
Feel the hair on the back of you neck lift
Close your eyes
Let everything go
And get ready for the ride!