I want them to know (part 1)

My eyes closed shut, but...
Tears still flow.
Somehow they manage to seap through

This emotion is all too familiar to me
Yet I sit alone and repeat the story
In my head over and over again.

I only want to tell me story.
How can I be heard?
What do I say...where do I begin?

Everyone says actions speak louder than words.
Sometimes it takes drastic measures
What action should I take?
What action is loud enough?

So I begin to think...
I can comfort my pain with the life giving blood.
My sorrows will leave for a short time
...but I'm only speaking a mild wisper that many won't hear

Do I strip myself down to bare emotions;
Let you see my naked truth
While you try to clothe me again?
This is only a shout heard across the room...

So what can I do to get my point across?
How can I truely be heard?
I'm hurting
I need help...

What should I do?

What will I do?