I'm overdue...

I have been neglecting my baby. I'm way overdue for a new post, and because of this I have a lot on my mind that I need to express through my words. Most importantly, my innermost emotions. I recently(refering to last night)had to check myself. I spoke to a good friend of mine about my actions to find out if something is wrong with my reactions and how I handle certain situations. To avoid being the "bad" guy, I almost alway try to be extra nice, and excuse foolish behavior. This past week has been a prime example of how I have been abused as a person. I don't want to get into details at the moment; maybe it's just too soon. So I will say that my trust and faith and overall belief in the morals of a supposedly "christian" man/woman is slowle being broken down. Being treated poorly by such a person has led me to believe that the people that I can depend on the most can quite possibly be the same person on the street who's selling drugs, and considering murder. That might be a bit extreme, but I guess I had to go there for effect and shock value. Chances are, if you're reading this, it worked. On that note, I must leave my computer screen and let that soak in. Not only for the readers, I know there my be few, but also for myself. I have so many thoughts running through my head I guess I just have to let them all soak in...so thank you and goodnight!