Homophobe....?

Ok, so at the moment my life is a boiling pot of drama. I'm sure you want to know all about it, but to be honest I don't feel like talking about it anymore. I spent several hours getting everything out of my syetem last night so I think I'm ready to talk about something else. Too bad I don't really know what to talk about. Let's see here...due to recent events, I'm going to talk about being a homophobe. I went to the mall the other day and realized that I was surrounded by homosexual people. It was quite obvious to me...I seem to have gaydar or something. Anyways, I was surrounded by several people who were obvously gay. If you knew anything about my past life with gay people you would think(as did I) that I would be quite comfortable in such a situation. To my surprise it was the exact opposite. I don't know what it is, but lately gay people really annoy me. The level of discomfort has gotten higher. I guess my first experiance with a gay person was not a positive one in any way...but I chose to repress those feelings. Now I want to start over with a clean slate. I guess everyone should get a second chance. I'm lucky to be given mine. I feel that being homosexual is not a normal lifestyle. I strive to be the normal all american girl. I guess you always want what you never had because God knows there's nothing normal about my life. I can't say that I judge people who live the life...in my openion you do what you want to do...it's your life, and you have to live it. However, I'm learning that I don't have to live someone else's life with them. I never wanted to, but never felt that I had much of a choice. Now I know that I do. Of course I did realize all this at the early morning hour of...hmmm, about 3:30a.m. I still think it makes sense now. I'm finally getting everything I've ever dreamed about. A blank slate...a fresh start at life. This time I call the shots, and the outcome of every situation I'm in is up to me. Right now I choose to eat though, cause my stomach is talking to me...feel free to comment though...how do you feel about homophobia? Are you homophobic? Do you know why you are? Think about it and late me know!